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A guy liked me, and all I did was treat him like garbage
This was early in HS, and I’m in college now, but I still feel terrible about it.
Some background: during most of my childhood I was bullied pretty incessantly. It got so bad that I would intentionally make myself sick to avoid school. So the idea that anyone would actually like me, wasn’t something I considered very seriously.
Anyway, first year of HS a guy is showing interest in me, and being really nice and flirty and all that. But I didn’t recognize that was what it was; I thought he was making fun of me, I thought he was joking and would eventually humiliate me in front of his friends if I showed any interest (a similar thing actually happened in middle school, so I really thought this was the same “game”). And so I treated him badly. REALLY BADLY.
I’d have glib and insulting comebacks to whatever he threw at me, which would then make the other people around us laugh at him. When he’d ask if I wanted to be partners with him on a group assignment, I’d laugh at him, ask why I’d ever want to work with someone like him. I’d humiliate him publicly whenever he showed me any kindness.
Eventually, after a particularly mean comment, he left me alone. He never said anything nasty to me, just stopped trying to talk to me. And I felt so smug, like I’d beaten him at his own game or something. And so when I finally fell into a friend group, I kept talking trash about him, talking about how ‘desperate’ and ‘pathetic’ he was.
Maybe a year or two after this, my closest friend remarked that she never understood why I was so cruel to him, and so I told her that I didn’t like him mocking me, pretending to like me. She set me straight on the matter, and after confirming with some other people, I realized how awful I had been.
I’ve tried many times through the years to apologize. Sent him a couple messages through Facebook and such, and I know he saw them, but he’s never said anything back. What’s really terrible, is that I actually had a crush on him in HS, which is why I got so mad that he was always ‘faking me out’, and got so vicious about it. I wish I could make it right.
Tl;dr: a guy liked me, but I thought he was just making fun of me, so I treated him like garbage and humiliated him publicly about it.
Edit: this got more attention than I expected. As a note, this all happened more than 6 years ago. I was 15, and a total bitch, but I have changed a lot. Doesn’t excuse anything I did back then obviously.